Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I dono about me anymore

fews picture representing about my feelings lately....
clueless n stress n dono wad am i doing lately...
am i standing alone??
last man stands...

i don wan it kept inside me
but there's no 1 i can said to...
wish there have 1 person that i can tell her all my secret that kept inside me
i wish that some secret i juz can tell
hard keeping inside of me
juz wanna let it be...




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Monday, April 27, 2009

时间:一天晚上。
地点:躺在床上。
人物:相互喜欢的双方。
女生貌似很想他,于是决定给他发一条短信:
你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。
据说明天要降温,多穿点衣服呀!!其实---其实---我现在挺想你的!!
考虑了一分钟,
把短信改成: 你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。据说明天要降温,多穿点衣服呀!!
又考虑了一分钟: 你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。 又一分钟: 你睡了吗?在干嘛呢? 又一分钟: 睡了吗?在干嘛? 然后,她按了确定发送的键! (叹气....) 男生的手机响了!男生抓起来一看果然是她,莫名的激动起来!赶紧给她回短信: 我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。呵呵,我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲!!听说明天要降温,别忘了多穿衣服呀!其实--其实--咱们明天一起吃饭吧? 考虑了一分钟: 我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。呵呵,我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲!!听说明天要降温,别忘了多穿衣服呀! 又考虑了一分钟: 我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。 又一分钟: 上网。 然后,他按了确定发送的键! (叹气....)有没有试过这样的情况,你喜欢的那个人,你居然会不敢和他说话。写一个短信给他,到了最后一秒,居然就会删除。左想右想,怕他知道你的心轻视你,怕哪句话说不好让他不开心,更怕的是,对方再忙忘记了或者因为别的原因没有回应,你多么尴尬。写一封邮件给他,写了一千字,删除掉八百字。去掉我想念你,去掉所有的心情,去掉天气,去掉自己刚刚看的电影,去掉自己昨天心情不好以及今天心情好的原因,去掉所有和感情相关的字眼,仿佛公事公办的,变成三行的邮件,到了最后,居然也没有发出去。不喜欢的人,可以容易地讲个笑话,随便地发个短信,甚至,打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。喜欢的,却变成心里的死穴一个,动都不敢动,甚至,看到的时候,话都说不出来。喜欢某个人,偏偏见到他,一句话没有。看着旁边的朋友和他谈笑风生,心里又嫉妒又着急。暗示或者表白心际,永远不丢人。需要谨记的一条,也是最重要的一条是,暗示或者表白,只此一次。相信我,话说到这样,一次就够了。没有任何表白或者暗示,谈一场对方不知道的恋爱是很白痴的事情。对方收到你的讯息没有回应你依旧持续表白追求则是更白痴的事情。他喜欢你,他一定会约会你。如果对方完全没有回应,但是你还是在喜欢他,那你就一边忍一边等。到了某一天,忍到忍无可忍。对方依旧没有找你。这个人,那就算了吧。
1.你突然点醒了我,我们的相识能够以年计算了,你找到你爱的,而我,还在原地徘徊着。
2.如果我从没遇见你,如果我从没爱上你,如果我一开始没坚信,也许我就不会是现在的这个自己。
3.你变了,我也变了,回不去的温柔,泪水如泉涌,最熟悉的变得最令我心痛。
4.情断了,绑不住,试着放手,走与不走,留与不留,我不想懂。
5.明知你心里没有我,也永远做不到你想要得那个,却不由自主让你看到最真实的我,掩藏住受伤的我。
6.当一切都回不去了,当我决定要走,你才明白冷落了我,我要的不多,可你都没给够,哪怕一个温柔的相拥,对我来讲,都是幸福的。
7.如果爱不曾来过,如果梦不曾碎过,如果心不曾疼过,那么我,是否还是你认识的我?
8.别害怕,我一直站在你的身后,总在你呼唤时守在你左右。
9.不要走,请逗留,不要再让我心痛,难道你认为伤我还不够?
10.不要再折磨我,我的心已被割破,流尽的不是血,是爱你的错。
11.诺言不过上一种谎言,那是种美丽的欺骗,可就是有人愿意为了它放弃一切
12.你就像我口中的牛奶,我渴了,饿了,困了,累了,你却帮不了我什么,只上一暂时滋润了。 13.野蛮的女人很任性,他们倔强不失可爱,野蛮不失温柔,他们认定的东西,就算不要、也不能让别人拥有,她们是贪心的,因为她们害怕寂寞。
14.擦肩而过,你我,并不是属于彼此的,无所谓的珍重与再见,无所谓的感受与苦涩已化作尘埃飘过,我们该珍惜现在。
15.窗外雨在下,一颗挨着一颗,我的泪水也蓬勃了,如窗外那断了线的雨珠。
16.当温柔不在,当泪水擦干,我现在的挽留还算不算?只愿不会成遗憾。
17.喜欢就喜欢了,心被牵动,无须理由,爱上你是我的自由,请打开窗口,让我的灵魂与你的灵魂相拥。
18.说过不会比你先走,说过就算走也决不回头,说过不再用手试泪,说过就算你走也不在原地逗留,说过的不在也再,说过的一切已不算,你的臂弯已不再是我心灵的港湾,而那些承诺不过是无稽之谈。
19.想爱不能爱才最寂寞,我试着勇敢一点,可我无法面对镜中颤抖的双眼,所以只能跟靠近我的每个人说再见。
20.走,还是要走的的,留下来的不过是一副躯壳,留,还是要留的,我的心就在次生根了。
21.孤独的双眼沉默着,何时才被明亮发现,躲在黑暗角落的我 ?
22.你的寂寞让我留恋,不小心回头看了你一眼,只有孤单的人峒拍?
23.淡了,散了,不多,一点就够了,睡了,呼呼中,懂了?是的。
24.梦已逝,心已碎,留下只是在为离开做准备。
25.如果不要我,请离开我,留下,只是继续令我难过。
26.如果我能够继续等待,如果时间能够停留下来,如果……没有如果?
27.断了联络,断了思念,最后的希望已灰飞湮灭,心已疲倦,痛吗?不懂。
28.擦去脸上的泪水,却带不走心中痛楚的感觉。
29.爱就爱了,接受拒绝?简单的几个字却变了味,你无言的回应,我逃避的闪躲,为何?正面回答不会比现在更伤害我。不要坚信,他没回应总好过答应了无法承诺,那样心更炙热,他给不起,你还要吗?
30.愁绪吗?有点闷,一点孤独品尝一点寂寞。
31.天空开始放晴,微风划过,如此轻柔,想每次你偷亲我的脸颊一样,我笑了,仅仅是因为想起了你。
32.有点落寞,我不懂该怎么说,让它在无声中逝去,我走了,其实它没有来过,只是夜晚心异常柔软。
33.当我流着泪向你说再见,你只是冷漠的向我告别,不感看你的冷漠的眼,心已碎成千片。
34.我难道的时候你在哪里?心痛的感觉令我麻痹,痛得我难以呼吸,却不敢告诉你。
35.你的心已不属于我,可我却还期待你的回应,明知不可以,却还是被牵引。
36.爱来过,也走过,痴过也恨过,伤过才会懂,一切皆是错。
37.电话那头,又是沉默,该放手,却难割舍。
38.每到夜深人静,我才倍感寂寞倍感心酸,孤单的人心易碎,总是看到别人双双对对,才感觉,一个人好孤单,只是真心已不在,真心已不算。
39.当依靠的肩膀不在,当我的眼泪流干,当我决定放手,我的心已不在。
40.我难过的时候你在哪里?一句抱歉就能把空白代替?

last week=bored = =lll

last monday
been a place call port dickson
thanks to my frend bob have the heart that take us go lepak2
but bored anyway~ah haha~

after port dickson...pagoh
a small village
n also my frend vick~take credit being taking us to place that i nvr been to~
bored also cuz ntg to do= =lll
swt~
but thanks them anyway~haha~=X

Thursday, April 23, 2009

our last gathering~


i forgot wad is the date d~
but anyway...not much people~quite steady de our class= =lll
allmost all balik kampung~= =lll
miss their mama...lolx
but anyway~not everyone back hometown~
8 people~...
it was fun~but im too full= =lllcoz ady eat at home d~
1st we going genting klang having KFC...cost rm70++


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so full till wan vomit d~vomit milk...lolx
after eat~we go little tree~
having some beer~
small kids drink de la= =lll..clasberg~



playing some stupid game...
真心大冒险
ask stupid question that 18++
lolz

my turn!!~lolz
been giving a task~

take a picture wif the singer girl at little tree~




me and my frend photo~

lolx~this pic so funny~= =lll...looks just like 1st time meet ...all shy shy geh???==lll

...................................more like this~haha~after being modified~....................................................

damm it my hair been cut~


regret being cut....T_Tlll
wuu~

group assignment artwork~not nice but we try our best d~

Is been a long time i dint write my blog~
lazy bit~ah ha~^^lll...
been busy lately doing many many many many many stuff...
crazy enuf~...
1st i do my last group assignment~
fun but i always do it at my last minute~..my group member~...okok la~
cuz im de group leader~swt= =lll


copy mcdonald package
draw by my group member hui min~geng~haha..thanks to her..
our group design artwork.............................teacher comment:"is creative..if can put other things..it would looks nicer"
duhh~is always wad she said~==lll

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I WANNA CHANGE MYSELF!!!

i aint no copycat!!!~
is not me copy her bcuz i like her la~
kek sei~haix...

this afternoon i read a book~
although i hate reading books~haha~
but i force myself into reading~
is to gain more information ma~how to do~haix~
a good book~
teaching a way in life~
a way to success in life~
n im w8ing for tat day coming!!~
when a person said "NO" and de "YES" is coming near to me~haha^^'''

95% of all human in the world act like robot!!~
i dont wan to be a robot!!~
i wanna change my attitude~
i don wan reason for all why i the propose i been live with~
i wanna change a different me~
i dont like being doing the same way like others!!!~
i wanna do it in different way~
but it needs takes time
it needs take courage~
i wouldent said "i will try"

i chat v her juz now~
i c her very stressfull~
hope i can do anything that i can help her~
seeing her blog said gou hou cham hou cham~
but i think not cham den me...XP..lolx~
de he that he mention about~
DAMM im so a jeolous guy = =lll..swt~

arh!!~next month!!!~
pay here pay that~pek cek ar!!~
thinking of paying de rent + bo lui~haix~
hope i can survive this n next month~
i realli appreciate my frends for caring me~
i will try my best to do things right~

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Stress month

this month is the stress most month in my life every!!!~
all the things came all of a sudden!!~~
im feelin so scare and very tired~
i cant barely to say my problem to my friends!!~
i almost dono how am i gonna survive this month or next month~
i dono am i do the right choice??
feelin nowhere,feelin so scare
so helpless~so angry~
but thinking is not the time that to tell my frend wad am i facing!!~~
all of sudden thinking that i walk alone in my journey~
thinking that i gonna face the problem alone~
time is running~
and i dono wad to do~
all i can do is be patient~

CRY??
as a boy~i shouldent cry~
crys that cant solve my problem
i juz wanna let it out~
all the problem that i kept inside my little small box inside me~
but sometimes i just wanna let it go~
i juz wanna scream!!!~

my family??
i dont want them to know me in this kind of situation~
i don wan make them worry
trying acting in a mature way ~
but sometimes is hopeless~
all the things came in a sudden~

I gonna prove!!!~~
i gonna prove to all my friends!!!!~
im gonna prove to them!!~
im gonna success 1 day~
i dont wan them look down on me~
i hate being distain by people~

Monday, April 6, 2009

fast and furious 4...T_T..wuwuuww

Arh~
the fast and the furiuos!!~
damm~im so desprete too watch the movie!!!~
but the problem is im out of credit~_~!!!swt~
treat my frend eat roti bakar~
cuz im de winnerX)..
kek sei~
i go with soon,insect,bao...and also cy n his friends~
actually the plan is going smoothly~
but suddenly~bao nid his piano practice~
den we out of time~
cuz 6pm start de movie~
haiz~waste my free time lor~
window shopping at KLCC doing nothingX(

This pic is capture by me when im doing nothing~swt

i likes and i hate~

i hate meeting deadline!!!!
i hate making choices!!!!
i hate being reject!!!!
i hate being alone!!!!!
i hate being ignore!!!!!
and i HATE people not respecting me!!!

i love doing assignment~loves de process~
loves de drawing n creativity~
but i hate meeting dealine~
making my life looks like im out of time~

i loves to think a lot~likes to predict for my future plans
but when a lot of choices to be choose with~
and i hate it~

I hate being reject~
who don hurt when being reject?
but this is the things we need to been through with~
it hurt but its is experince to me~
to know what is the feelings when being rejected by womebody~

Sometimes i loves being alone~
is because i can do the things that i like~
but i dont wan it remain for too long~XP
cuz actually i loves in middle of the crowd of my frends~

I hate being ignore~
being ignore hurting me inside~
ignore by de girl that i wan to be with~
likes a thousand blade piercing inside~

dono why am i always the opinion of my frend~
and i change it for them~
do i live my life for them?
but is to know their comment bout me though~
but to think of it~
i can suit everyone comment bout myself~
every1 taste is different~
thats why sometimes i realli dont know who am i~
dont know how to become mself~
clueless me~

Thursday, April 2, 2009

clueless me,unknown her

Dono why a that girl appearence keep floating in my mind
dono why am i so addicted to that girl
dono why me so nervous when ONLY wan msg in her msn
dono why hard to me communicate wif her

but actually i know what happen to me~
juz dono what to do~
although i din even meet her
although i dono what way im so attract to her
although that i dono why am i always thinking bout her
i dono how to do

wondering is she got bf although she said shes single~

i noe that sometimes shes unhappy or being hurt by people
i noe that she is alone sometimes ~

but i dono what way am i gonna comfort her
i dono what way do i gonna stand for her
i dono how am i gonna stay for her~
i juz dono how~

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

buzy week

This week been a very buzy week~
sei lecture giving me so many assignment~
1 designing artwork and 2 presentation
still nid to improve my speaking~
lake of confidentT_T
but luckily i manage to survive my hard time(assignment)
i ad try my best to draw this artwork but still looks like shit~lolx
I so buzy doing assignment cuz i make it last minute de la^^'''ah haha~
this week~sing k with my room mate lor~
we go new way K song~
also improving my singing lor although is not good~
many things has happen in this week~


is a buzy week though but i love it being buzy~
at least i got things to do~
sleep time have been reduce~
but i dont like take afternoon sleep though~_~lll
Wed i have teman my frend going hear some amway speech~
they are scary~sounds like wan to force me going joining amway~
so many DD come and tell me what benifit of joining AMWAY~
DD(diamond) said will make profit~
i din said i'm not trust that plan but i juz don like the way they forcing me joining...
keep asking for my IC n ask me to sign~= =lll...
i respect my frends father so i say ntg~
but anyway is a history d~




nothing to do while going to amway~so i take this pic~juz for fun only de la~swtlll...

dono when i take this pic de~but i think is around the earth hour~means that there lots of people that is selfish that din care about the earth~= =lll...taking care of the earth means taking care of our next generations doenst they relize!!!??onion head Pictures, Images and Photos